Sugar be Damned

When I woke up this morning, I felt good. It was raining but I didn't have to go to work so I was feeling pretty good. I took the hubby to the doctor in the morning, we went out to lunch and got myself a haircut in the afternoon. I was having a good day and then it all changed. I received the test results from my recent, yearly checkup. It seems I may have Type 2 Diabetes. I have to have another blood test. It kinda ruined my day.

I have been kind of melancholy since that phone call. I know it is not that big a deal at this point, but I'm not having a good day anymore. I have had to face my mortality. I'm not a kid anymore and I want to live to a ripe old age. On my mom's side of the family "old" is around 65. My mom was 60 but my paternal great grandmother was 104! I hope I take after my dad's side. He is 72 and still kicking.

I also have a vitamin D deficiency. I thought my bones hurt all the time because of my age and weight. I'm glad that is an easy fix. I can't wait till my legs stop aching! It is a bitch to get old!

Once again, it leaves me pondering What Happened?

The Evils of Girl Scout Cookies

Yes, it is that time of year again, when those little monsters disguised as the cutest little girls you've ever seen show up in front of stores or knocking at your door. Or even worse, when a co-worker brings the little devil, dressed up in her uniform, to the office to go cube to cube pushing her sugar laden poison! Who can resist? I am helpless against them. I need my fix! I think it would be a lot easier to control myself if I could only get 1 or 2 of certain things like Girl Scout cookies (or french fries) but you have to buy the whole box. It is very difficult to just eat a few when they are staring at you and calling your name.

So, what will my strategy be? The number one thing would be not buy them, but we know that won’t happen because I am a sucker for those little cuties...and the cookies too. They could be selling dog crap and I would probably buy it! So the solution is to smarten up:

-I will only buy 1 box of Thin Mints and that is it. I’m sure the GS organization will not face financial ruin because I didn't order 3 or 4 boxes.
-I will eat no more than 4 cookies in one day. 4 Thin Mints = 160 calories, not a bad deal!
-I will keep the cookie box out of sight to hopefully keep it out of mind.

I wish you all luck against the evil cookies pushers.

Tonight was my weigh in. I belong to T.O.P.S. (Take Off Pounds Sensibly) and we meet on Thursday evenings to offer support and education. It is helpful to know that other people have the same issues. I gained 1 pound which I expected because I have spent the last few weeks eating with utter abandon paying no attention to the calories I was consuming. I was actually amazed it was only 1 pound! I have been paying attention the last few days so I am looking forward to a good week.

Tonight we talked about stress and what to do to alleviate it without food, of course. Stretching, massage, soothing baths and meditation to name a few. I think the best stress reliever for me is a good book and a nice, hot cup of tea.


My week on a scale of 1-10:

*Tracking 3 –I could say 10 because I logged everything I ate since I decided to get my self in gear, but I want to keep track from Thursday to Thursday so I am only getting a 3.
*Exercise 1 I need to step that up! I'm only giving myself a 1 because I have to walk up and down stairs at work, but in reality, it should be a 0.
*Eating 3 again, same reasons as Tracking
*gained 1 pound

***update on the Thin Mints-I bought 1 box, ate 1 cookie and they are all gone!
Yeah, I won't have to look at them again. But I will have to look at the
peanut butter cookies my daughter made while I was gone! Time to get the
kettle on and open my book!

What Happened?

How did this happen? It seems like all of a sudden I was fat. I know that is not the case as it took several years, but time flies so fast it seems like it happened overnight. Today is my day of reckoning. My “AH HA” moment, if you will. I keep telling myself I’ll get back on track tomorrow. We all know how that goes. Well, I am going to get back on track now! maybe…no, NOW! It is necessary. I am so uncomfortable, I have trouble with my knees and feet, it is hard to tie my shoes and get out of the car. I have no energy and sleep apnea. Things have got to change. Yes, NOW!

Yesterday I entertained the thought that maybe I am on a path of self destruction...Suicide by refrigerator? I haven’t come to a total conclusion yet, but I don’t think so. I am not unhappy in general only with my weight and my ability to gain control of it. There are areas of my life that could be better, but I am not unhappy.

So, then what is my problem? Am I a food addict? Yes, I believe so. (my name is Jamie and I am a foodaholic?) I receive comfort and pleasure from food and that is what I need to address before it is too late. I will be 50 this year and I want to head into my 50’s a healthier, thinner me. I think blogging will help me sort through my feelings, “talk” over my issues and help me to be accountable.

I have been on all kinds of crazy fad diets and I have surely brought my metabolism to a halt. This past year I have been educating myself on healthy eating habits and nutrition and I have learned a lot. It is time to put that knowledge to good use. I know that exercise is a key component in a healthy lifestyle and will get my metabolism working more efficiently. I am hoping to share tips, tricks, articles and any other information that I find as well as my ups and downs. So, here goes………………