Monday, February 21, 2011

What Happened?

How did this happen? It seems like all of a sudden I was fat. I know that is not the case as it took several years, but time flies so fast it seems like it happened overnight. Today is my day of reckoning. My “AH HA” moment, if you will. I keep telling myself I’ll get back on track tomorrow. We all know how that goes. Well, I am going to get back on track now! maybe…no, NOW! It is necessary. I am so uncomfortable, I have trouble with my knees and feet, it is hard to tie my shoes and get out of the car. I have no energy and sleep apnea. Things have got to change. Yes, NOW!

Yesterday I entertained the thought that maybe I am on a path of self destruction...Suicide by refrigerator? I haven’t come to a total conclusion yet, but I don’t think so. I am not unhappy in general only with my weight and my ability to gain control of it. There are areas of my life that could be better, but I am not unhappy.

So, then what is my problem? Am I a food addict? Yes, I believe so. (my name is Jamie and I am a foodaholic?) I receive comfort and pleasure from food and that is what I need to address before it is too late. I will be 50 this year and I want to head into my 50’s a healthier, thinner me. I think blogging will help me sort through my feelings, “talk” over my issues and help me to be accountable.

I have been on all kinds of crazy fad diets and I have surely brought my metabolism to a halt. This past year I have been educating myself on healthy eating habits and nutrition and I have learned a lot. It is time to put that knowledge to good use. I know that exercise is a key component in a healthy lifestyle and will get my metabolism working more efficiently. I am hoping to share tips, tricks, articles and any other information that I find as well as my ups and downs. So, here goes………………

3 comments:

  1. Jamie I am sooo very proud of you!!! This blog is fantastic, and even made me "tear up" a little! (Not a big surprise I know!) I hope you know that all of your friends and future readers are cheering for you, and I, your BFF, the loudest of them all!!! I love you now, and will love you no matter what your weight is, I just want you healthy so we can have each other for years to come!! Much love and warm hugs, Shari

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  2. BTW....by you being so brave in "putting yourself out there," I am vowing to start writing my book!!!! Thanks for the inspiration!!!

    Hugs,

    Shari

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  3. I'm here for you girl. I will even start posting in my weight loss blog again and add you to my blog roll. I've regained most of what I lost, and even though I understand WHY, it's been really difficult to fix. I look forward to following your journey and offering support when you need it.

    Like Shari says, it's really about being healthy...the rest is sparkle and fluff. (fun sparkle and fluff, but still...)
    I applaud your first step and I'll be reading your posts as often as you post them up!

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