Thursday, March 31, 2011

Blindsided by the Light

I'm sorry I am a little behind. I will try to stay on top of it.

Another blow to my emotions! I met with my doctor to go over my lab results. It appears my cholesterol is not so good either and my doc told me that having diabetes, I have to be treated like a person that has already had a heart attack. I don't know what worries me more... blood sugar or the cholesterol!

Now that I have double motivation, you would think that I would be kicking proverbial butt, but the fact is that I am somewhat overwhelmed. I have so many emotions flowing right now it is hard to organize my thoughts. I have 3 months to get my sh*t together or I will have to take medication.

I am coming to terms with the hand I have been dealt. I have had to completely change my thought processes. I am not all the way there but I have made great strides. It used to be that when I was going to eat something that I shouldn't I just told myself "it's ok, just be good the rest of the day" or something to that effect. Now, that is no longer the case. Now when I want something not on the plan, I think about amputated limbs, blindness and being a burden to my daughter. It really does the trick.

I will say that not eating the processed junk and bad carbs has made a difference in my satisfaction level. I feel pretty good and I don't feel like snacking between meals. I have also joined the lunchtime walking club at work. We walk a mile around the building. The weather is good right now, but when summer comes...I don't think I'll be so agreeable.

One thing that I miss...French Fries. I just love 'em. Sweet potatoes make good fries but I found an even yummier swap. This recipe is from Hungry Girl that uses Butternut Squash and it really hits the spot.

Click here for the recipe. You will not be sorry.

**My week on a scale of 1-10:

*Tracking 5 - I start the day right but I fizzle out as the day goes on. Still gotta work on that
*Exercise 8 - I walked most days but I think I need to incorporate a little more activity in my days
*Eating - 10

*lost 1.75 pounds

1 comment:

  1. Aw, so sorry you're having a rough time dealing with the news. I got the cholesterol news years ago but didn't worry too much about it. Yeah, just call ME stupid.
    I love the visualizations you're using...though grisly. Hey! Whatever works, right? Just keep caring for YOU first, and keep on trekkin'
    I love The Hungry Girl!